cramps

Well, when you are pregnant you still get cramps - just because things are moving around - your uterus is getting bigger. LOL I just said uterus. Anyway - last night was the first night I woke up in excruciating pain. It was cramps times 10. It felt like something was being pulled away from my inside skin. (hey, I've never claimed to be a doctor or know parts)

Anyway I got up and went to the bathroom to check for blood - i was actually concerned. Weird. But there wasn't any - but I had to pee really bad. So I went - and walked back to the couch and went back to sleep - but couldn't get comfortable. Seemed like whenever I stretched out it hurt - so I slept in the fetal position for the rest of the night.

I actually dreamt that there was blood everywhere! And woke up in a panic. I believe there is part of me that has grown fond of the idea of having a baby. There is still a large part that is very scared - but I find myself being extremely anxious for the 8th to roll around to find out if there is a heartbeat or not. I find myself wanting to tell my parents before the 8th that a human being could be taking up residency in my womb for the next 7 months. LOL I said womb.

Who would have though a few months ago, when I went to Hocking Hills, that I would have come home with extra baggage. I was just going to see trees and waterfalls and nature. Not bring back a baby. I think it's funny how things work out. Then I get a little frustrated about how things worked out, and then I think about every one's faces the day this baby is born - and it makes it all worth it. It's going to be one cute kid, let me tell you!